RND/ to consider the unique emotional properties of the light – of existential depression – seen in classic urban designer comedy cockney docudrama series “Minder” – knoworrimen, guv?

suffering from mild existential depression ir decide to watch entire tv series of minder again

being from borough / manor as n were – various shots of londinium most ancient resonate to/in core of ir distributed neural network

in which ir dear old mum/ gawd bless er used to drag ir half way around x sprawling necropolis every week when she dropped ir off at friends houses before work

such sights sounds / signs of ir past passing up intensity of existential depression – once experienced as constantly slightly worried child waiting impatiently in cold flats of strangers for ir mum to pick ir up/ take ir home for tea

consider cause something to do with quality of thin drab light inna endland: expressed here in minder x slow 70s feeling of washed out naffness – distinctly indistinct / unremarkable story of misplaced human endeavor/ endless financial struggle set against backdrop of unremitting anonymity – highstreet blues / brown carpet / orange curtains – old dirty brick hyper ballardian flyovers [1] / imposingly apathetic brutalist inner city architecture contrasting heavily with suburban blandness / working class back alley abandonment

in which to watch minder means to immerse elf / accidentally get lost in in psychological blandscape where rooftops recede infinitely into distance – minor fringe universe of dodgy deals / back handers – of all sorts – populated by cheap cigar smoking spiv-u-likes / ex contender ard geezers for hire – each on quiet ask no porkies no receipts available instant finance – middling class twits poncin around in some upper class /gangster owned nighclub – mugs / wallies each n all – endless corrugated galvanised iron cups of weak tooth stained tea / zero future prospects: forever saddening half twight world direct from hand to mouth to inside jacket pocket say no more around houses depends whos asking lightly torn posters of x fit tennis bird scratching er arts on wall of ir second hand car dealership hut – orrible bacon / egg butties slathered with hp sauce on white bread bring van around back terrence import export no vat get ir collar felt by filth today as yet another day dawns lonely / grey

life in remission but final sentence for permanent for ir average punter

in short overcast outlook – long stroll down degraded memory palace to / of nowhere anywhere forever – laundry list compiled by er indoors – dusty bunches of ooky cliches for a pahnd – to era displaced tunez of mis tuned joanna down some dodgy rub at end of frog/ do what arfur, etc

Reference Link

  1. J.G. Ballard Studies

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